Assalamualaikum...

My very first entry. I've created this new blog for it to be private, and so that nobody knows who I am. This gloomy blog will be filled up with my disappointment, sadness and hopes. In case you're wondering why, it might be as simple thing as you can watch in dramas. I have a 'not-allowed-by-parents love relationship'. It has been almost a year with him. I truly love him, with all my heart. We are happy together and planning to get married, have kids and so forth. Yes we are just the same as all love couples out there.


So now, why my parents do not allow this relationship? Because I'm gonna get bachelors degree in less than two months, which means I am in the final semester. And his highest education is SPM. This is why my parents do not agree with my choice. You see, some people take status, titles, education level as the most important thing. And I'm totally disagree with that. I can marry a doctor, but will I be happy? Who can tell?? Nobody can.


This is not my first love. I had a love relationship before this, for 4 years period of time. That was more than enough to teach me what LOVE exactly is. And as for this time, yeah it is about to lead to a failure again I guess. But our love keeps me strong. His family did try to come to my parents home, but my parents disappeared at the moment. They gave me a lot of excuses, and as a daughter I tried to understand. So it was ok for me for a while. I am trying myself hard to not to be rebellious. I try to fulfill all my parents dream and hope, but deep inside I am crying, I am screaming for helpless helps.


Now, my relationship with Mr.LOVE is still going on, and I'm not thinking of telling him this matter. Because he once used to be rejected by his exGF's family, for the damn same reason. Can you imagine if I tell him this? How is he going to face the fact that my parents is just the same as his exGF's? Or for real, my parents are actually worse.


Mr.LOVE is now working with his brother's company which is one of a telecommunication construction company in town. He works hard to save money for our future. He is not that bad, you see. Yeah maybe he seems to have a low education level but he has missions in life. He plans for future. He taught me what living is for. He made me think and plan for future. He is not hopeless. Why my parents rejected him without spending a time to know him better? Why? My dad is not a Tan Sri or even a Dato'. But why he rejected my boyfriend just because of status?



I'm tired of crying for hours. Allah, show me the way. ALLAHUAKBAR.