Sharing some thoughts.

JANGAN MENCARI TERLALU SEMPURNA (DR.FADILAH KAMSAH)

by Say Woot Woot on Sunday, February 27, 2011 at 5:42pm

 BUAT PEDOMAN BERSAMA.  

Jika kamu memancing ikan.... Setelah ikan itu terlekat di mata kail, hendaklah kamu mengambil ikan itu.... Janganlah sesekali kamu LEPASKAN ia semula ke dalam air begitu saja.... Karena ia akan SAKIT oleh kerana bisanya ketajaman mata kailmu dan mungkin ia akan MENDERITA selagi ia masih hidup.

 Begitulah juga .........  Setelah kamu memberi banyak PENGHARAPAN kepada seseorang... Setelah ia mulai MENYAYANGIMU hendaklah kamu MENJAGA hatinya.... Janganlah sesekali kamu meninggalkannya begitu saja.... Kerana dia akan TERLUKA oleh kenangan bersamamu dan mungkin TIDAK dapat MELUPAKAN segalanya selagi dia mengingatmu....  

Jika kamu menadah air biarlah berpada, jangan terlalu mengharap pada takungannya dan janganlah menganggap ia begitu teguh.... cukuplah sekadar keperluanmu.... Apabila sekali ia retak.... tentu sukar untuk kamu menambalnya semula.... Akhirnya ia dibuang....  Sedangkan jika kamu cuba memperbaikinya mungkin ia masih dapat dipergunakan lagi....

 Begitu juga jika kamu memiliki seseorang, TERIMALAH seadanya.... Janganlah kamu terlalu mengaguminya dan janganlah kamu menganggapnya begitu istimewa.... Anggaplah dia manusia biasa. Apabila sekali dia melakukan KESILAPAN bukan mudah bagi kamu untuk menerimanya.... akhirnya kamu KECEWA dan meninggalkannya.  Sedangkan jika kamu MEMAAFKANNYA boleh jadi hubungan kamu akan TERUS hingga ke akhirnya....  

Jika kamu telah memiliki sepinggan nasi... yang kamu pasti baik untuk dirimu. Mengenyangkan. Berkhasiat. Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba mencari makanan yang lain.. Terlalu ingin mengejar kelezatan. Kelak, nasi itu akan basi dan kamu tidak boleh memakannya. Kamu akan menyesal.  

Begitu juga jika kamu telah bertemu dengan seorang insan..... yang pasti membawa KEBAIKAN kepada dirimu. MENYAYANGIMU... MENGASIHIMU... Mengapa kamu berlengah, cuba MEMBANDINGKANNYA dengan yang lain. Terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan. Kelak, kamu akan KEHILANGANNYA apabila dia menjadi milik orang ain Kamu juga yang akan MENYESAL....

Teardrops..

Dear blog, why is this so hard? I cry whenever I'm alone. In shower room, toilet, and I cry until I fall asleep with tears, it gets dried underneath my eyes.

 I still can't accept that this is not just a dream.....

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why?

Sometimes I wonder, why my parents is so different with others?

 I'm comparing them with my friends' parents. 

Why their parents can understand the way my parents can't? 

What a difficult path for me to go through. 

Huh.

Crazy

I was thinking of eating a lot more and being much fatter so that he'll hate me and leave me. Only then he can get better life with someone who is less complicated than me. But..will he leave me that way? What if he won't?


Sayang, I'm sorry. I never know it is this hard. I am really sorry......

Give me strength

I texted my mum to have this kind of slow talk in SMSes. I told her that Mr.LOVE is the best for me. I asked whether she and my dad can consider my feelings. Wanna know what she replied?


"Mum rasa family dia saja nak ambik kesempatan kat you, because you're gonna have degree qualification. Anak dia SPM je. Sebab tu datang rumah kita nak tengok kita ni macam mana"


My heart was beating so fast at the moment I read the text. Yes the ugly truth is, it comes from my very own mother.



SUBHANALLAH. I know Allah is testing me because I am somehow able to face this. Allah, give me strength.

Assalamualaikum...

My very first entry. I've created this new blog for it to be private, and so that nobody knows who I am. This gloomy blog will be filled up with my disappointment, sadness and hopes. In case you're wondering why, it might be as simple thing as you can watch in dramas. I have a 'not-allowed-by-parents love relationship'. It has been almost a year with him. I truly love him, with all my heart. We are happy together and planning to get married, have kids and so forth. Yes we are just the same as all love couples out there.


So now, why my parents do not allow this relationship? Because I'm gonna get bachelors degree in less than two months, which means I am in the final semester. And his highest education is SPM. This is why my parents do not agree with my choice. You see, some people take status, titles, education level as the most important thing. And I'm totally disagree with that. I can marry a doctor, but will I be happy? Who can tell?? Nobody can.


This is not my first love. I had a love relationship before this, for 4 years period of time. That was more than enough to teach me what LOVE exactly is. And as for this time, yeah it is about to lead to a failure again I guess. But our love keeps me strong. His family did try to come to my parents home, but my parents disappeared at the moment. They gave me a lot of excuses, and as a daughter I tried to understand. So it was ok for me for a while. I am trying myself hard to not to be rebellious. I try to fulfill all my parents dream and hope, but deep inside I am crying, I am screaming for helpless helps.


Now, my relationship with Mr.LOVE is still going on, and I'm not thinking of telling him this matter. Because he once used to be rejected by his exGF's family, for the damn same reason. Can you imagine if I tell him this? How is he going to face the fact that my parents is just the same as his exGF's? Or for real, my parents are actually worse.


Mr.LOVE is now working with his brother's company which is one of a telecommunication construction company in town. He works hard to save money for our future. He is not that bad, you see. Yeah maybe he seems to have a low education level but he has missions in life. He plans for future. He taught me what living is for. He made me think and plan for future. He is not hopeless. Why my parents rejected him without spending a time to know him better? Why? My dad is not a Tan Sri or even a Dato'. But why he rejected my boyfriend just because of status?



I'm tired of crying for hours. Allah, show me the way. ALLAHUAKBAR.